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July 21, 2004
voglio di dance all night and ballero
Okay, so when I said the Ferragamos made me Florentine, I was wrong. I am now fully Italian due to the purchase of... white. linen. pants. E-mail me (link to the upper right) for a picture of the current, Italianized me.
In a week and a half I'll join my brothers to celebrate another wedding, although by no means any less meaningful than the two that have come before or the two that will come next year. I think about these things and I realize that by this time next year (or so), 5 of 8 will be permanently attached. Married. Matrimony. For these guys, singular pronouns no longer exist. Everything is "we."
Now, this is by no means bad. I envy them in some ways, being able to be at that point now, secure and ready and realized. It's just hard to grasp, still. It's a huge thing, really. Crazy. I'm happy for them, the already married, the soon-to-be, the in-the-planning-stages-and-realizing-just-how-much-it-is-going-to-cost-and-cringing.
And I relish the thought that they will all be at my wedding as well, someday, if ever there is one.
P.S. - It's always an odd feeling that comes when you look at recent search strings from Google that led people to your website...and see that someone searched your full (first and last) name and the name of your alma mater. If you're reading this, e-mail me and let me know who you are.
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July 20, 2004
sometimes it seems / you're not with me...it hurts me so much / it hurts me so much
I'm reading a book that might qualify as self-help, or self-improvement, but nonetheless is quite cooler than I expected. It has to do with time/life management, and the author believes that time management is in fact event management, and to do this well, you need to prioritize what happens in your life according to your governing values.
Which the point I'm at now: deciding my governing values. I've sat and worked on a list and come up with some, such as "have fun," "fulfill your dreams," "make a good first impression," "be financially secure" and so on. It's a harder exercise than I thought. Try it, and you'll agree.
What does drive our life? Money, success, sex, love, hope, God? Is it the number of commas in our bank account balance or the number of gold stars on our report card of life? Is it a spiritual drive to fulfill something decided before we were born? Is it the people in our lives?
Quite the exercise, yes. And for another, first one to name the song that the title for this post comes from wins...something. Use the comment box.
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July 11, 2004
LA...proved too much for the man...
With the purchase of my first pair of Salvatore Ferragamo shoes, I have officially become Florentine. From a humble beginning as a cobbler to megamillionaire shoe and clothing designer, Ferragamo is one of the defining aspects of this city. The castle that holds his store here speaks to that.
I can see myself slowly adapting to life here. My hands move more when I speak. I'm more likely to respond in Italian than in English now. I know the cuss words. I eat dinner at 9:30 or 10 and don't think anything of it. Wine is water.
Life is good here. I spoke with an old and good friend today on the phone and he asked me how life was. It's good. It's hard to describe in any other way; I work hard and love it, I eat and drink well, I stare out at the city. It's hard to complain.
I do miss one thing, though.
Hopefully tomorrow I can find a new suit or two. The sales are on. It's July.
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July 10, 2004
don't apologize (i hope you choke and die)
It's the weekend, and it's welcomed. Long work weeks make for short weekends, or so someone important once said. Or I made it up, but either way...
I have my new camera now, and it is getting the tour of the city. I'll be posting pictures soon for all you who want to see. Lots of great things to see and capture on digital.
I was supposed to be at the beach right now, but it didn't work out. And so I have the hot city summer to enjoy instead.
The US in less than three weeks...
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July 07, 2004
i got a twenty dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you without make-up...
So I haven't been the best at updating since the relauch...good thing Pratt's back to keep things going. The Three Musketeers (Owen, Ed, Pratt, and I) are up and running all at the same time again. Hurrah.
New Ikea furniture makes me happy. I have a real desk now. And bookshelves that are yet to be constructed. Life is hectic and full. And yet I feel empty. Distance is a killer.
It's true what they say, that you can always find something to be unhappy about, or that it's always greener on the other side, or whatever. It's never about what you have, but what you don't have. And that's not a way to live life. Appreciate what you have and don't worry about what you don't have right now. It'll come. Right?
It's easy to say that, but to live it...I don't know. When I decided I was buying a desk, all I could think about was getting the desk, even though I have all this stuff in my house already. I just wanted what I didn't have. Now I have it, and I'm happy, but is my life really changed? Better?
To calm oneself and be happy no matter what you have or don't have is the true happiness. To be secure in what you have "out there," be it in the heart of another, in the foreseeable future, in the possibilities of life, that is a great way to live.
If only I could live it.
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